Thursday, April 19, 2012

Blogity, Blog, Blog, Blog

If you hadn't noticed, the posts have been infrequent, however that is about to change. When I first started this blog I was still unsure as to exactly what it was to be, and to evolve into. But I think that as far as subject matter goes, I will let my mind make it up as I go along, adding in tidbits here and there into my fantastic life as a Single Mother, and Pro Girl Guide Cookie Eater! Because that's how I roll. I have links to all the social media sites I belong to and a few that are not mine that I follow because of their genius, aside from my own.
A brief intro about who I am, starts with the fact that I am fairly newly divorced as of last summer. I am sure that at some point I may blog about it, but for now will keep the nasty bits private. Lets just say that I am still traumatized by it in some ways, but it has not broken me. What is has done however is make me stronger, smarter about my decisions, and very cautious of a certain category of the male species. I am not here to bash (too much) and wish everyone joy and the ability to fart rainbows out their asses. Mostly I have a positive spin on life, its hard not to with what I've been blessed with. A beautiful daughter, Super-step-son, and the love of the rest of my family is all I need. Now, I have never made it a secret about my Christianity and sometimes I may blog about that too, but rest assured that no one has to worry about me preaching too much.  Its is up to you and not me what your religion is, and what you believe in general is none of my business, so lets agree to disagree for the sake of society about our religious affiliations and all get along K? Fantastic! So, moving on I hope that for the future, this blog will be informative, funny, thought provoking, and always full of love. That work for you, cuz it works for me.. ok...go!!!

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Writers Block, Another year Older, and Girl Guide Cookies

But not necessarily in that order as the cookies are at each step of the way here. That time of year again when my daughter brings home the cookies, and then the cookie case stares longingly at me to open it and the next thing that happens is as natural as rain, the box i just scarfed down is laughing at me because it knows tomorrow that i will have opened another one! HA on you lady it taunts me!! So I hid the case in the closet so I don't have to look at it and subsequently get the urge to go near it.
I turned 38 about a week ago, not too sure which feeling is stronger. The one to hide in bed and convalesce, or the one to say screw it and go out and get another tattoo. I know most would say, "hey, go with the tattoo" but the way i have been feeling lately I want to climb under the covers and stay there. Depression? I don't think so, I had that, done that, taken all the meds. It's probably just the fact that at this age I had always thought I would be in my forever career, in my dream home, happily married, with 3 or 4 kids. So my reality looks nothing like this at all obviously. I love my kids, my dog, my family. But dating sucks, renting sucks, and trying to find a job just sucks too so a whole lot of things suck right now, including the finances. I'm not down, I'm just ambivalent for the moment you could say. I know I'm not the only one. Come on who else out there can add to my list of sucks at this side of almost 40!
I am slowly starting to get out of my writers block again. It seams every 3 months I go through a good 3 or 4 weeks of nothing on the brain. Not sure if this means Alzheimer's in my future or maybe its just to much stress. Probably stress. Again a re-occuring theme in my life. Who needs it! I used to handle stress just fine up until the marriage fell apart, I guess that opens the flood gates to all the other emotions that can hamper you down whenever you try to accomplish something all for a worthy cause after the rough stuff is over. Well I got divorced but it won't get me, or rather get to me again if I can help it. Hopefully tonight I can get through it gracefully without  trying to sneak into the closet to grab another box of cookies. : /